Tag Archives: Nirvana

still from video showing Cobain's hand

Nirvana: You Know You’re Right

“You Know You’re Right” was the last song Nirvana ever recorded (Jan 30 1994). It was released posthumously by Geffen on October 8, 2002.

In this song, Cobain uses the word “right” in four different ways. He means right as in “correct.” He means right as in “right-eye.” He means right as in “right-wing.” And finally, he means right as in “rights.” Continue reading Nirvana: You Know You’re Right

“Bring your knife-proof ear muffs.”

Walls Have Ears

Well, I’m just a modern guy. Of course, I’ve had it in the ear before. – Iggy Pop, Lust For Life, Lust for Life 1977

Lots of things mean more than one thing. One of those things is “ears.” Ears are what you use to hear with, but they are also what (tigers and their bosses) use to spy on us. They are bugs. Hidden microphones.
Continue reading “Bring your knife-proof ear muffs.”

Polly II: suggestions of rape and involuntary silence in grunge videos

Each of the following videos contains clues about two secrets. The various crimes and cover-ups against Chris Newman is the obvious secret. It’s the situation which has been written into movies, T.V., and music videos for decades, and which I’ve been writing about for the past year. (Boldface words have definitions in the title attribute – try running your pointer over them.)

There is a second secret which I believe to be an enforced silence and cover-up having to do with a sexual assault against Kurt Cobain. Like the situation with Chris Newman, I believe this secret is not actually so “secret.” It’s a widespread deliberate cover up. And as with the assaults against Chris Newman, I do not believe that Kurt Cobain wanted the assaults he suffered to be covered up. Why do I believe this? I believe this because he laced his entire catalog with flaming easter eggs. As did many other artists, including the following.

In all of these videos Chris’ (aka “sun”) blindness is indicated by missing, covered, rolled-back, or otherwise blanked-out eyes. The lack of truth is shown by missing and/or false teeth; and in Doll Parts, stasis is indicated by the empty fireplace (one needs fire to burn all the liars) and the muddy, dirty, “hanged” dolls.

1992 Babes in Toyland – “Won’t Tell”

False teeth and water imagery to suggest that truth has been compromised. A disembodied hand suggests a lack of power. There is old man/birth/blood and single-eye imagery. (I believe in this case, the old man is a Chris Newman/Mark Arm twin.) In one scene, the mouth is removed from Kat’s face, as she stands, and is baptized, holding a handful of (blood-sucking) leeches.

Her mouth is then shown speaking or singing from the palm of a hand. At the end of the video, the older man is wearing a pink feathered mask, spotted hide “tutu” and cowboy boots as the women come after him wearing vampire fangs, waggling tongues, and brandishing drumsticks, then knives. The very last image of the video is a stuffed squirrel crouched strangely over an animal-like piece of wood. It evokes the idea of a sexual assault, though perhaps vaugely.

1994 Hole’s “Doll Parts”

Doll Parts is a stunning song and video featuring a little boy representing Kurt Cobain crouched by a cold fireplace. Outdoor scenes show Courtney smashing a twisted Victorian tea party and its landscape of dirt-covered dolls hanging from sticks and trees.

The Doll Parts video was made shortly after Kurt’s suicide. A doll’s covered eye is shown at 0:38, and there is also an anal sex-like scene just one second long: 1:41-1:42, between the words “bad skin” and “doll heart.”

1995 Alice In Chains “Grind”

Grind also uses the hole imagery, the blinded eyes, and the missing teeth.

I believe the old man featured in this video is a “twin” character, but mostly a reference to Mark Arm, due to the man’s lack of teeth, affection for the stuffed goat, and his actions in the video. Clues to the assaults against Newman and Cobain are mostly found in the scene involving a stuffed animal menagerie, beginning around 2:53.

First the old man places his hand near the cymbal-playing ape (sun) from whom he receives a stigmata. The man then looks over to see the goat (devil) slowly backing away from the scene. Alice In Chains singer Layne Stayly then looks at a long-eared patchwork creature with a star on it. The creature is kicking out its back legs in anger or torment. I believe this creature represents Kurt Cobain.

At 3:06 the patchwork star creature is attacked and overpowered by a creepy looking hook-beaked creature wrapped in something knit (like a sweater) with pins and/or knitting needles stuck in, like some kind of voodoo doll creature. The knitting needle creature forcibly unzips a zipper on the patchwork star creature (3:08), removes something that looks like a piece of bloody gauze, and chews it up. The old man is then seen closing up the brown paper bag, walking up the stairway, and petting the three-legged dog that waits there. The chorus of the song is “In the darkest hole, you’d be well advised not to plan my funeral before the body dies.” It’s a clear reference to the sun who is buried and considered “dead.”

These artists all make a connection between what seems to have been an assault against Kurt Cobain and the burying of Chris Newman for a couple of reasons. The first reason, I believe, is because in both cases, the perpetrator was (and is) the same person. I believe it is Mark Arm.

The second reason for the connection has to do with predation and copying aspect of the crimes against Chris. All these artists were clearly aware that it was Chris who brought his 1970s heavy rock influenced sounds, and specifically the heavy fuzz Big Muff and the watery Small Clone, into northwest punk rock. All the musicians had to know that Mudhoney guitar players Mark Arm and Steve Turner co-opted the heavy fuzz & Fender twin sound, and either tricked or coerced Kurt Cobain into adapting the Small Clone and Big Muff into his music as well. (I believe this is why Kurt sang – and felt – “I’m a liar and a thief” in the 1993 song, Pennyroyal Tea.) Kurt used the Big Muff in the studio, but is rarely seen with one onstage. The Small Clone sound mixed with a more Wipers like distortion (DS-1) is however, very strongly associated with Kurt Cobain.

2013 Alice In Chains “Devil Put Dinosaurs Here.”

At least one other Alice In Chains video contains a symbolic (but more obvious) rape scene involving the disembodied head of a pink bunny rabbit. That is the 2013 Alice In Chains “Devil Put Dinosaurs Here.”

The rape scene takes place between 2:40-2:43 (read more commentary on this video)

1993 Nirvana “Heart Shaped Box”

It’s been said that Kurt Cobain wanted William Burroughs to act out a specific type of rape scene with him (one that involves a transference of “power” from the rapist to the victim) in the video for Heart Shaped Box, but that Burroughs declined. The video that was finally made for Heart Shaped Box did not contain a “rape” scene, but it did include a scene where Kurt imitates the “poppies” scene from Wizard of Oz and/or represents his own death. The 300 pound transparent angel, an obvious reference the sun and specifically Chris Newman, sees Cobain’s prone body in the poppies, and then stops, places her hands on her hips, and appears to show disapproval (3:10-3:24). That particular scene is found only in the director’s cut which was not widely released until less than a year ago (August 2013).

Polly: matching rape songs by Mudhoney, Hole, and Nirvana

I met Kurt at a club in L.A. right before Nevermind came out. We took a picture and he said, “Come on, let’s give the finger!” So we did.
– Iggy Pop, Rolling Stone 100 Greatest Artists.

(Note: Run your pointer over the boldface words for more info if your browser is equipped to display definitions or additional information in “title” attributes.)

It’s difficult to start writing about rape, and all the time it shows up in grunge lyrics, and especially, videos. And by “grunge” I am talking about a specific community of musicians who got their start in the Pacific Northwest during the 1980s.

It’s difficult in part because everyone (even me – a little bit) wants to stay in denial, but more so because the rape imagery is so pervasive. It’s pervasive enough to make me think that a literal rape occurred. And that the victim was Kurt Cobain.

If this is true, Cobain’s 1994 suicide doesn’t make everything “ok.” Even if you don’t think the dead deserve justice, there are related crimes which continue to this day, including the continuing exploitation of Chris Newman (who is not, in fact, dead), the decade-plus smear campaign against Cobain’s widow, Courtney Love, and the fact that Cobain’s daughter Francis has to live, without a father, under a cloud of lies. From my perspective, the truth is vital.

I already wrote a bit about two of Hole’s songs, Burn Black and Dicknail. Maybe the next logical thing to do is to go straight to the source and write about Nirvana’s rape songs, especially since Kurt Cobain went to such lengths to finger someone.

The key to Nirvana – and Mudhoney – rape songs is the song “Sweet Young Thing” by the Monkees.


In the TV performance of the song, the Monkees perform “Sweet Young Thing,” (1966) elderly people dance around, take turns in wheelchairs, etc. In the circus mirror, (uninitiated) innocence is represented by old age.

More notable are the lyrics:

And it’s love you bring,
No that I can’t deny,
With your wings,
I can learn to fly,
Sweet young thing.

People try to talk to me
Their words are ugly sounds
But I resist all their attempts
To try and bring me down.
Turned on to the sunset
Like I’ve never done before
And I listen for your footsteps
And your knock upon the door.

21 years later, in 1987, Mudhoney wrote a song with the same title (Sweet Young Thing), though this time the hook was “sweet young thing ain’t sweet no more.” It’s a snarly, sinister-sounding song about the end of innocence, shown by the lines “mommy’s little pills spilled all over the floor” and “mama can’t handle her on her own, she said ‘you just wait ’till your father gets home.'” It might be worth noting that the word “pills” sounds like “bills” on the Superfuzz Bigmuff version of the song. (Sweet Young thing full lyrics) Indeed – when you’ve got dogs, pigs, and ducks chasing you, you know there are big bills involved. (Ask Lady Gaga.)

Another contemporary Mudhoney song (also on the Superfuzz Bigmuff EP) which seems related is “Sliding In And Out Of Grace.”

Cry for mercy, relieve my hate
Sliding in ‘n’ out of grace
Spill my seed, suck my waste
Sliding in ‘n’ out of grace

Oh God, how I love to hate
Sliding in ‘n’ out of grace
Save me Lord, and fuck the race… etc (full lyrics)

Songs performed later, mainly by Courtney Love, suggest that “Sliding In And Out of Grace” was specifically about Kurt Cobain. The word “grace” comes up in a couple of her songs which I believe are about Kurt, most notably “Northern Star,” but also “Happy Ending Story” and in some of the live performances she’s done. In fact, I believe that “Northern Star” matches Courtney’s more recently penned “Honey.” I believe that both of those songs were written not about twins, but about triplets. Three other songwriters: Kurt Cobain, Chris Newman, and Mark Arm.

Anyone who really pays attention to Courtney’s lyrics, videos, and live performances would have a hard time missing the subtext she’s been weaving in since day one. But the ringleaders work hard to re-direct your attention anywhere but where you should be looking. That is, I believe, the reason for the seemingly never-ending smear campaign against Courtney Love.

Around 1990 (same era as Hole’s songs “Dicknail” and “Burn Black”), Kurt Cobain wrote two very important songs dealing with rape and abuse. One was written from the perspective of a kidnapper and rapist experiencing what seems to be dissociated shreds of empathy, and appeared on the 1991 album Nevermind. It is called “Polly.” The other was written, sarcastically, from the perspective of a rape victim. It was called “Rape Me,” and though, like Polly, it was said to be written around 1990, it didn’t appear on an album until 1993’s In Utero. There is a third song that is connected, which I’ll just mention in passing, and it is “Negative Creep.” Negative Creep, with it’s chorus of “Daddy’s little girl ain’t a girl no more” is clearly a response to the Mudhoney song “Sweet Young Thing Ain’t Sweet No More.” The fact that every single rock critic has missed that most obvious point for the past quarter of a century ought to suggest that something is really fucking stinky in Denmark. And everywhere else, too.

In any case, I believe that in all of Kurt Cobain and Courtney Love’s songs, “Daddy” is Mudhoney’s Mark Arm. (With or without a “twin.”)

The name “Polly” means “parrot,” going back to the 16th or 17th century (OED), and the classic phrase “Polly want a cracker” makes the parrot reference undeniable. The distinctive characteristics of parrots are imitation. (They also tend to be yellow and green – “sun” colors. – see lexicon) Because the “night club” reflects and imitates the sun, and because the grunge myth is tightly controlled (everyone has a script from which no one ever deviates) Cobain was forced to “parrot” the party line. “Speak at once while taking turns” is the way he described it in a later song, Radio Friendly Unit Shifter. The parrot reference is the reason I think that Polly is specifically about Kurt Cobain, written from a place of dissociation. Dissociation is what happens when you experience severe abuse. Though Polly is also a “mirror” song. I couldn’t call it a “twin” song because there are multiple images in this mirror. It’s a POLY-MIRROR. (See how Kurt does that? EVERY. WORD. MATTERS. and sometimes every letter.)

The poly subjects are all crime victims and/or perpetrators: Chris Newman (as usual); and the 14 year old girl (who’s name was not actually Polly); and Kurt Cobain. Also the perpetrator/s of the respective crimes. I believe there are 5 subjects in Polly. And by that I mean that I believe that the crimes against Kurt Cobain and Chris Newman had the same perpetrator.

I also believe that Kurt Cobain was using the news story upon which he based the song as a metaphor for something that had happened to him (very possibly an actual rape), and something that he wanted to happen: escape from an untenable situation, and ultimately, justice.

Friend had picked her up near the Tacoma Dome in his car after she had attended a rock concert. She was able to earn his trust and sympathy by convincing him she enjoyed it. She managed to escape when he stopped for gas. She got out of the vehicle and made a scene attracting attention from surrounding people. – from Wikipedia Polly_(song)

Polly was saved, I guess because the “surrounding people” had no investment in her continuing captivity and/or silence. Kurt Cobain was and Chris Newman is in a different situation.

The perpetrator of the incident that inspired the song “Polly,” Gerald Friend, was thought at the time to be the Green River killer. (Wikipedia: Gerald Arthur Friend)

Green River, of course, was name of the first band to sign with Sub Pop, fronted by Mark Arm. In 1988 Green River essentially split into two bands: Pearl Jam and Mudhoney.

In terms Kurt’s “other” rape song, Rape Me, there are lines like “my favorite inside source, I’ll kiss your open sores” (suggests someone with a hidden heroin or other syringe-drug habit), “you’ll always stink and burn” (recalls a Sylvia Plath line “turn and burn” which in turn recalls the position of the hanged man, which is the sun), and then there are some very notable lines, like “rape me – hate me – waste me – taste me.” “Hate me” reflects a line from Mudhoney’s aforementioned “Grace” song, “Oh God how I love to hate.”

If you listen carefully to the song, Rape Me, Cobain is singing “I’m not the only one,” but he’s also slurring into “I want the only one.”



Dehumanize the victim/s

last days - sleeping and stag huntI can’t believe I have to say this, but apparently I do.

When you refer to a human being with words that indicate that that person is in fact an animal (monkey, bear, lizard, cat, etc.) or a food (chicken, apple, waffle, pizza, etc.) or an extinct and/or mythical creature (dinosaur, mermaid, big foot, etc.) or other non-human things (sun, stone, plant, tree) you are dehumanizing that person.

When you dehumanize a person, you make it easier – even acceptable – to use, abuse, and exploit that person.

I am not saying that animals deserve to be exploited – because they don’t. I am simply saying that human beings should not be exploited, and certainly not in the way that I have been, and MOST certainly not the way Chris has been. In Chris’ case, this kind of behavior, over a period of more than three decades, has ruined his career and I believe, severely affected his life and health. And we are financially ruined with no hope in sight, because this blacklisting is very, very real, and because I didn’t sell Chris out, it extends to me.

chim chim vs the butterflyThe reality is that Christopher Lynn Newman a true musical genius the likes of which I have never seen before. He still writes and records (on his 4-track, because what else can we afford?) every single day. And what does he have to show for it? And perhaps more importantly… what do YOU have to show for it? (let me gue$$…)

The fact that Chris grew up in a small Washington town and didn’t read Shakespeare or get an MBA is NO EXCUSE for what you all have done, and continue to do to my family.

Another thing that I should not have to say, but apparently I do, is that when you slip someone a ROOFie, and they pass out, and you throw them into a hole and rape them repeatedly… even if they wake up the next morning with no awareness of what happened. IT IS STILL RAPE.

Kurt Cobain sang: “I’m not the only one.” Do you think he was just pulling these lyrics out of his A$$?

Am I getting through to ANY of you yet?

Nirvana on Saturday Night Live 1992

The following image is taken from an advertisement for Nirvana’s 1992 appearance on Saturday Night Live. It appears in Charles Cross’ beautiful book, Cobain Unseen. It should be pretty obvious from the imagery employed on this flyer that everyone associated with Saturday Night Live was aware of and/or complicit in the predation on Napalm Beach.

Nirvana on Saturday Night Live 1992
1992 (click on image to enlarge)

You see here the use of the colors red, blue, green, and yellow. You see the mirror imagery in the two opposing images of fire/flames. The flames (Napalm Beach) are behind the television. A man points to the flames with his thumb (“under my thumb” is a reference to someone being oppressed). He shows his teeth (truth). There is a prominent button on his shirt. I believe that buttons (which appear frequently in lyrics and imagery) suggest confinement (buttoned) and in at least one old James Bond movie, hidden microphones are disguised as buttons.

Another man is observing the flame from a lawn chair behind the television. His quiet casual repose suggests “sleeping” – lack of action, and complete acceptance.

On the television is an image of the swimming baby from the cover of Nirvana’s Nevermind album. The baby appears to be reaching for a one-dollar bill on a fishhook. This baby is a “sun” (Chris Newman/Napalm Beach) reference. And the dollar, hook, and string a symbolic reference to the manipulation being done to Chris’ life and career.

In front of the television is an image of a woman in a hula hoop. The hoop symbolizes the “hole” and the hula symbolizes dancing (and Hawaii, which is of course where Kurt and Courtney had married that same year). The woman’s shirt shows a face with two x’s for eyes. This is an early Nirvana logo, and the crossed eyes, lolling tongue suggest blindness, speech, and death.

According to several sources, Kurt Cobain overdosed on heroin and nearly died just a few hours before this Saturday Night Live appearance.

Illliteracy Will Prevail: Buffy’s Pregnant / Class of ’86 (Fecal Matter cassette)

This is from a demo cassette called “Fecal Matter,” Kurt Cobain’s Aberdeen-based proto-band. Dale Crover (Melvins) plays bass and drums. (wikipedia: Fecal Matter). If the dates on Wikipedia are correct, the tape was made in 1985 but wasn’t leaked to the public until 20+ years later (2006/2007).

A term like “Class of 86” relates on its surface to high school graduation. It was actually my graduation year – I am class of ’86 – and I am one year younger than Kurt Cobain.

86’ed is also an American slang term meaning to get “kicked out,” usually of a bar. Usually if you get ’86ed, it’s for bad behavior.

“Illiterature” is another great word. It comes up again (along with the flies) on In Utero with Very Ape. Illiterate means “can’t read or write.” Kurt Cobain was sometimes portrayed as being a dumb hick. The term “white trash” has been thrown around a lot despite (or because of) the fact that it’s an insult.

But “ill” is also slang, and especially back in the 1980s it meant “great skill.” And I know that is the meaning Cobain had in mind when he spoke of “ill-literature.” He knew his own strengths, and he could see others’ weaknesses. Prejudice created blind spots in his enemies. They underestimated him. And others.

Kurt Cobain must have been about 18 years old when he wrote the Fecal Matter lyrics, but already crafting lines with layers of meaning. As the years went by, his writing only got tighter. By the time In Utero rolled around, the King of Illiterature didn’t waste a syllable.

Boy, would I like to do her
I’d like to jump her bones
Slip her the hot beef injection
I’m hoping she gives me a hand-job
Hum’na hum’na

Fecal Matter cassette coverI got so wasted last Saturday night
Drank a whole half-gallon
Got really sick, puked
It was great, though
And me and my break-dancing friends went out
And beat up some punk rock faggots

Buffy’s pregnant
We’ll plan a future
We’ll fit the class
Go debate on
Who has the nicest ass
Spread our mind games
With verbal words
We are all the same
Just flies on turds
Clone, clone, clone, clone

Saw you yesterday
86 rules
Did you hear what Marsha said?
“Like, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know.”
Chris called me up
And he went and I went
And, oh, my God, I’m so embarrassed
I could just scream
“I swear, I will never talk to him, as long as I live”

Small CloneBuffy’s pregnant
Plan a future
We’ll fit the class
We’ll go debate on
Who has the nicest ass
Spread our mind games
With verbal words
We are all the same
Just flies on turds
Clone, clone, clone, clone

Buffy’s pregnant
Plan a future
We’ll fit the class
We’ll go debate on
Who has the nicest ass
Spread our mind games
Verbal words

We are all the same
Just flies on turds
Clone, clone, clone, clone

Been A Son (Nirvana)

To my recollection, the backstory to this song is that it is about Kurt Cobain’s sister.

She should have stayed away from friends
She should have had more time to spend
She should have died when she was born
She should have worn the crown of thorns

She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son

She should have stood out in the crowd
She should have made her mother proud
She should have fallen on her stance
She should have had another chance

She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son

She should have stayed away from friends
She should have had more time to spend
She should have died when she was born
She should have worn the crown of thorns

She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son
She should have – been a son

January 6, 1989 – Mudhoney with Nirvana in Portland at Satyricon

January 6, 1989. My friend David Ackerman took these photos 25 years ago today here Portland, Oregon at the Satyricon. David’s photos are the only ones which have been published from this show. Mudhoney was headlining, Nirvana was opening. It was Nirvana’s first out of state show. Courtney Love can be seen in two of the photos. In one photo, she’s posing near the stage as the bands are switching. In another, she’s watching Mudhoney play. (I’d love to identify the rest of the people in the audience shots – drop me a line if you can help.) The photos are available for licensing or as fine art prints (contact me). They should not be used without permission or credit.

The Devil Put Dinosaurs Here (Alice In Chains)

The Devil Put Dinosaurs Here - Alice In ChainsI would be remiss not to discuss Alice In Chains’ The Devil Put Dinosaurs Here since it was released just last May. And it is deep and insightful and it rocks.

First, the album cover. Red, the color that seems to be associated with Seattle.

Next, the Triceratops skull image on the cover, referencing both the Napalm Beach song “Screaming Skull” and the Untouchables song, “Caveman Go” (“Don’t let the triceratops slip you three horns!” – oops. too late.) And of course, there’s that Land Of The Lost album cover that Chris painted in 1986.

To my knowledge, Chris Newman has never met a single member of Alice In Chains. Nonetheless, it seems like he is always somehow present in Alice In Chains albums.

Wipers album: Land of the LostOn its surface, The Devil Put Dinosaurs Here is a song about religious fundamentalism and damages wrought by misguided, non-scientific, black and white thinking. That’s how most of the music websites describe it. The video, is about something different, reflecting the underlying meaning of the lyrics. The little children’s show drama is a funhouse mirror held before 25 years of secrets.

Come to me, I’ll fill the hole
Why would I be lying
End fan, all planned out
Offering a wonderful
Peace of mind worth buying
Bow down last round up

I am wise and you don’t know
A cloud is my home
Only some get in
Got a ‘maginary friend

The devil put dinosaurs here
Jesus don’t like a queer
The devil put dinosaurs here
No problem with faith just fear

Promise those who’ve gone before
Waitin’ on you flyin’
Leading, receiving us
I’m as flawed as any man
Look at me I’m smiling
Drink me, eat me up


Fear – Liar

The line “a cloud is my home” reflects a line from Nirvana’s Dumb “we’ll float around, hang out on clouds.” I think The Devil Put Dinosaurs Here is for Chris Newman (the devil) and Kurt Cobain (the queer). “No problem with faith, just fear.” Faith is not the problem. Fear is the problem.

The primary players in this video are someone I’d call the ringmaster, the clown, and the Easter bunny. (In this video, I believe that Courtney Love is represented by the little blonde girl.) We have the common reference to a “show.” In the 1995 Alice In Chains song, Grind, we’re told “Come the morning light, it’s a see through show / What you may have heard / and what you think you know” – and of course, in the Nirvana Heart Shaped Box video, and on the In Utero cover, the angels are “see through.” Maybe it’s a reference to how Chris has been silently observed, imitated, and probably also injured – but not helped or openly recognized.

The Easter bunny is a particularly clever reference, being as Kurt Cobain’s albums and videos were laced with “easter eggs” (inside references and symbolic markers). The bunny is pink (white + red – also can signify innocence, homosexuality).

Here is the scenario in this video: there is a television show with a story to be told and products to be sold to children. The “ringmaster” is part magician, part businessman, part bully, part thief. The clown is a naive drunk. And probably a junkie too (his arms are covered all the way to his hands). The children and puppets watch the clown and imitate him, eating what he eats. The bunny is having fun at first, and is clearly a fan of the ringmaster – at first. The ringmaster tricks, robs, slanders, steers, and beats the clown. The ringmaster teaches the clown’s tricks to the Easter bunny, and he then he rapes and terrorizes the Easter bunny. For example, he takes the bouncy balls he has stolen from the clown, and throws them at the bunny’s head. The bunny seems further terrified as he witnesses how the ringmaster is abusing the clown. Finally the bunny jumps through the wall (like the cowardly lion in Wizard of Oz) exiting the scene entirely.

The children watching the show enjoy watching the clown, and they also laugh when the clown is abused. When they are forced to witness the rape of the Easter bunny, however, things change. The TV show isn’t fun anymore.

Between 3:10 and 3:20 a puppet show on the TV show (show within a show) explains why no one will speak out about these crimes. FEAR. Two puppets, a boy and a girl, dressed in red, look at the dinosaur skull lying before them, and look distraught, like they want to do something, only to be terrorized by a devil. We see dinosaur teeth and big red eyes (probably a reference to the Napalm Beach song, Monster: “He’s got big red eyes / moving to and fro / forked tongue / sharp teeth all in a row.”) We see Gozilla’s red-eyed decapitated head sitting bizarrely in a nativity scene.

The ringmaster appears on the TV to be humbly praying, showing that he puts up a pious front for the viewing audience.

The blonde girl is obviously upset by the rape of the bunny, but even more afraid of the clowns toothy (truthy) smile. After the bunny jumps through the wall and disappears, things get horrific. The little girl can’t stand to watch the ringmaster constantly abusing the clown.

At 4:30 we see the clown dancing with a skeleton, and the skeleton is wearing what looks like a Shriner’s hat – but in fact I think it’s supposed to look like the hat of an organ grinders monkey. The skeleton reference is probably something to do with the transparent angels in In Utero and/or the skeleton references with Chris’ self released albums on “Skullman Records.” In Radio Friendly Unit Shifter Kurt Cobain sings “starve without your skeleton key.” I think the skeleton – like the sun, the monkey, and the dinosaur – is another symbol related to Chris.

At 5:17 the “ringmaster” is sitting on a couch with the bunny’s head on one side, and the skeleton on the other.

At 5:24 the bunny stands behind the clown holding what appears to be a circular saw. (to saw his way out of that box? or something else?) At 5:29 we see a close up of the Nativity scene. One of the kings holds a golden box before the teeth of the Godzilla head. Mary kneels behind his head, and there is a sheep too. Images of teeth biting flesh. A skeleton. A skull.

5:40 the clown is now wearing the fez that the skeleton had been wearing. There is a weird man with a sheep-like mask standing behind him. (Masks and masked figures are another common theme in these videos.)

The clown had transformed to a crazed monster, beaten and bloody, blackened eyes – but about 5:45, we’re back at the beginning again. The lights go on around the set. The clown looks like his old self again. He puts white powder around his blackened mouth, not really covering anything successfully. He’s getting ready to go on stage again.

The “ON AIR” light goes on again.

Whatever happens next is being written here and now.

other interesting things

There are ladders around the set, another reference to ladders and stairs.

At 4:45 the clown is making signs with his hand that either represent a “gun” or an “L” (for LOSER).

The two puppets that show up throughout the video – the one in pink looks like the Easter Bunny, and has two prominent teeth. The other one is red. These puppets appear onscreen with the words “I am wise and you don’t know” and again with the words “a cloud is our home.” Kurt Cobain & Layne Staley?


Snow Bud and the Flower People - Green Thing

Chim Chim Mind Control

Monkeys, The Monkees, Apes, and Chim Chim come up a lot in Kurt Cobain’s album art and personal storytelling. For example, when he and Courtney first met (in the version that takes place at Satyricon in Portland, not in Everett True’s version of the story), supposedly he gave Courtney a sticker with Chim Chim on it.

Similarly, when an anonymous commenter named DJ was arguing with me on Collapse Board, he kept comparing Chris’ music to that of The Monkees. This was obviously some kind of in-joke and supports my idea that Kurt Cobain’s references to monkeys, apes, and Chim Chim are related to Chris Newman.

Chim Chim is a monkey sidekick in the Speed Racer cartoon. The Chim Chim which appears on the back of Nevermind album seems to have a battery pack on its back with wires attached to its head, and it’s holding onto a monarch butterfly.

I believe that with this particular image, Kurt Cobain was making a reference to the Monarch Mind Control Project.

chim chim vs the butterfly

In Charles Cross’ (beautiful) book, Cobain Unseen, there is photo of Kurt Cobain’s monkey collection. One of the monkeys appears to be pouring poison into another monkey’s ear. This reference recalls the method of murder used in Shakespeare’s Hamlet. But what it really means is that the people closest to “the monkey” – Chris Newman – have been feeding him flattery, lies, deception. Since “they” (and by “they” I suppose I mean Illuminati, or whoever it is that calls themselves “France”) also call Chris “dead,” it makes me think that Shakespeare was also being metaphorical when he wrote about Hamlet’s father being murdered with ear-poison. Because this stuff goes back a-ways.

Kurt Cobain's monkey collection